[Not even thinking about what things she could manage along those lines with magic.]

The only way for that to happen is if I gave up magic, did what my real father wanted, and moved back to the Human Village and took over the shop. I won't do that. Magic is my life. I still haven't found what I'm looking for, what I want, what I need. If I don't push myself, push my limits, I'll never get there. I'll never find the key.

And in Gensokyo, that means I'm not going to live too far into my thirties. And if I do, I probably won't be human anymore. I want to die human, ze.