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[adropofjupiter]

[1: Wednesday 8/17 - Action (340 Brady Lane)]

[After escaping Spades, Marisa ran to the first place she could think of where she would be safe, sneaked inside and hid. In a certain magician's room. Under her bed. At least until she calmed down. Sadly, she wasn't hidden quite as well as she thought she was...]




[2: Thursday 8/18 - Phone/Action (1125 Taylor Road)]

[There's a lot of fumbling with the receiver before Marisa finally gets a handle on it.] You know... Some of this milk isn't so bad... This one bottle's kinda like my shrooms. I wonder... I wonder if I'll get those back. Gods I miss them...

Like I miss watching the stars dance in the sky and the... the... trees. Y'know how profound trees are? Such deep rooted knowledge of life and death and the way of balance and the universe. I wonder what the trees would say here with as fucked up as this place is.

[She seems to be talking to someone else now, having dropped the receiver onto the table without hanging up.]

Hey, Patchy... let's go talk to the trees...




[3: Saturday 8/20 - Action (507 Ricardo Street)]

[Fashionable scarf tied around her neck to hide the still-healing bruises from when she'd been strangled earlier in the weel, Marisa decides to go visit Alice and Shiki. Misery loves company and they were all miserable.]

Comments

[adropofjupiter.livejournal.com]

It's okay to be afraid, ze. You just gotta not let it control you.

...have you asked him nicely? Said please? Tell him how much it hurts your heart to see him go through all that? Have you told him you love him lately? Told him you two need to share the burden?

[hangedhourai.livejournal.com]

We both know that I do.

... My first reaction was just to yell at him. I was so scared... but, he doesn't even... think of himself the same as other people. His sense of self is so warped that I don't know how to get through to him sometimes. Sometimes I think that he already... sees himself as being dead.

[adropofjupiter.livejournal.com]

Alice... Just because you both know that you love him doesn't make saying it, hearing it, any less important. And powerful. Sometimes it just needs to be said.

And maybe he does see himself as already dead. I'm pretty messed up in the head and I can't imagine what it must be like for him to see death everywhere he looks. And then there's his family's lineage on top of that...

Maybe I understand him a bit better at times because I'm insane. I'm sure the way I see the world is pretty fucked up, ze. That curse reminded me how much the magic calls to me and the lengths I will go because of it.

...he says he's sorry, by the way.

[hangedhourai.livejournal.com]

*Alice sniffles a bit, but she tries to hide it. Badass youkai magicians don't cry.*

Idiot, he can't even apologize in person... but you're right, I guess I will just have to make him understand how much he means to me.

[adropofjupiter.livejournal.com]

[When Alice returns to being a badass youkai magician again, she can stop crying. For now, tears would probably do her good. Marisa hugs Alice again.]

I suggest saying: 'If I could freeze the heavens to make my moments with you last for eternity, I would gladly do so and give up all that I covet, stop hiding behind the dolls I've created because my love for you is stronger than anything I've ever encountered. This is our eternity... please share it with me.'

[She chuckles softly.] Or something like that.

[hangedhourai.livejournal.com]

*Alice gives a half laugh, half sob.*

Maybe you can say something like that, but I cannot. To begin with, if I said something like that, Shiki would surely think that I am about to die again.

[adropofjupiter.livejournal.com]

That's why you rephrase it in Alice-speak. It'll get the same point across.

Now get up, ze.

[hangedhourai.livejournal.com]

... How come? This bed is comfy.

[adropofjupiter.livejournal.com]

Because you have a boyfriend you need to go hug, tell you love him and actually talk to about this. Not yell. Talk.

[Pulling covers down] So up.

[hangedhourai.livejournal.com]

*Alice uses every last inch of willpower she has to sit up and get out of bed.*

Yes, I understand... this is something I have to do.

*And she goes to talk to Shiki. Godspeed, Alice.*

[artwithknives.livejournal.com]

[And he peeks over the couch at the incoming Alice. HE'S SUSPICIOUS.]

....yeah?

[hangedhourai.livejournal.com]

*Well, there's obviously something on her mind. She looks like a wreck, pajamas still on and everything. Alice approaches him cautiously like she really doesn't know what to say in the first place.*

I am... just going to say what I am thinking.

[artwithknives.livejournal.com]

...if this is about the milk...

[hangedhourai.livejournal.com]

Do you think I came in here to talk about the weather?

*Alice sighs, rubbing her face with one hand.*

Wait, no, that is not what I meant...

[artwithknives.livejournal.com]

Aren't we already decided on that stuff?

[hangedhourai.livejournal.com]

Can you, for once in your life, listen to me without interrupting or yelling stubbornly at me...?

[artwithknives.livejournal.com]

...fine, whatever.

[hangedhourai.livejournal.com]

You've done this because you want to protect me. Fine, I understand. But you're wrong. You think you've been protecting me for this past week, but you have not been. Watching you die and get hurt is the same as being killed myself. ... I know, I know you can't see it. That's your problem. And... it's okay. You were the one that helped me realize that it's okay to not be perfect all the time.

As much as I want to say 'let me suffer with you' I don't think I can because I'm scared. That's my problem. You've always helped me so I want you to know how important your life is. If you can't think of your own self worth, then please remember how much you mean to me. This... this isn't a one way street. I love you.

[artwithknives.livejournal.com]

Come here...

[hangedhourai.livejournal.com]

*Alice, slightly teary eyed, walks over and stands in front of Shiki.*

[artwithknives.livejournal.com]

[He pulls her down to his lap and wraps his arms around her.]

Sheesh....why did you say so earlier?

[hangedhourai.livejournal.com]

*She holds him tight, something that's actually pretty rare for her, and rubs her face into his shoulder.*

Because I just got emotional and yelled at you instead. I can keep my calm around almost everyone but you're just a different story.

[artwithknives.livejournal.com]

Don't expect me to have an answer to why though.

[hangedhourai.livejournal.com]

Why what?

[adropofjupiter.livejournal.com]

[Marisa will follow...]