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[adropofjupiter]

[Phone - Stage 2]

[There's a brief moment of silence where it sounds like someone is trying to talk but can't. And then there's a clearing of the throat.]

Well, I was going to try to talk about this in misdirections and stuff like that, but apparently I can't. Which sucks, cause now I've picked up the phone and might as well finish what I started.

Anyways... I don't really have a family. Yeah, I have parents back home - a father at least - but we don't get along. I haven't actually had a full conversation with my father in... years now? And I can't go fix things with him - too much water under the bridge and all, plus I think seeing me is just too painful for him. And I don't want to put him through it.

So I've lived on my own for years, watching family units of friends, allies and even nuisances and I get kinda jealous. Because I see something there that I want, but I can't ever have, 'cause I don't belong to anyone's family. I'm always on the outside looking in, pretending it doesn't bother me, pretending that I don't need stuff like that.

This place... it pisses me off so much if I think too much on it. It makes a mockery of all that with its false families and supposed ideal family values. It's like rubbing it in my face.

[a pause]

And just a friendly warning to those from my world: I will eventually get Master Spark back. Don't make me start a list, cause I've got paper out and ready.

Comments

[artwithknives.livejournal.com]

...I know what you mean in a way. I've been passed from family to family back home.

[adropofjupiter.livejournal.com]

Maybe. But you got something now, ze. She loves you.

Even if you are a l--

[Well, screw this truth thing. That was supposed to be 'loser'. Ugh.]

[artwithknives.livejournal.com]

I don't think that counts in a way. I mean, my family was killed and I ended up being adopted by the people who killed them. Then after getting almost killed by my new brother, I had to go live with a branch family. I don't really know what it means to have a father or a mother at all.

[adropofjupiter.livejournal.com]

Huh. I'm not entirely sure I like having things in common with you.

And I think Alice does count, ze. Cause when you think of 'home' - the ambiguous home not your home world-place - she pops into your head, doesn't she?

Me... I get spell books, magic components, my stuff and the cat.

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..........Gods, I hope this doesn't mean I'm gonna turn into the crazy cat lady when I get older.

[artwithknives.livejournal.com]

Alice is...Alice. I do love her and all but I don't think we're really in a husband and wife type of situation right now.

At least, Patchouli would never accept it. She doesn't like me for some reason.

...and there's nothing wrong with having a cat.

[adropofjupiter.livejournal.com]

I never said you were, ze. Just making a point. And Patchy doesn't like most people. Or at least she makes a show of not liking them whether she does or not.

I know this well; she calls me 'rat'.

[artwithknives.livejournal.com]

I can't number the amount of times she's hit me.

[stage 4/5, she is~]

[reflames]

Kirisame, do you think you're alone?

I fucking had to watch everyone in my family die, either of old age or something gruesome. And I've lived on my own for 1,000 years.

For Christ's sake.

[A beat.]

And if you come after me with Master Spark, I will Fujiyama Volcano your ass.

[adropofjupiter.livejournal.com]

Screw you, Mokou. I didn't say I was alone - I said I didn't have a family. I'm sure as hell not alone.

And you made that choice on your own. No one made you drink the Elixir. So you get no pity from me.

[reflames]

I didn't mean alone like that. I meant, "do you think you have no kin?"

And no one's making you not go and visit your father and clear things up with him. You don't really deserve pity either.

[adropofjupiter.livejournal.com]

I don't want pity, ze. I wasn't even intending on talking about it like this. My point was about how much this place sucks - more than usual - at times.

And I'd like to point out that I didn't start these issues between me and my father. It wasn't my choice to be the spittin image of my mother. He's the one that started treating me differently. I tried once. It didn't work.

[reflames]

[She'll listen. And then she'll let out a sigh, and speak softly.]

We all think this place sucks. I myself find the family shit to be especially obnoxious and mocking, too.

I suppose I can't say any more on that. Zugzwang.

[adropofjupiter.livejournal.com]

Not everyone thinks this place sucks, ze. And that I don't get.

Anyways... Later.

[blastiagraphy.livejournal.com]

[ Sifts through all of this.

And picks out the important part. ]

What exactly is "Master Spark"?

[adropofjupiter.livejournal.com]

[Marisa knew there was a reason she liked you.]

Giant laser of DOOM, ze.

[blastiagraphy.livejournal.com]

That sounds interesting.

I wonder if your type of magic can be mimicked using blastia...

[adropofjupiter.livejournal.com]

I dunno. Maybe we can try it out sometime.

[blastiagraphy.livejournal.com]

I suppose I could show you Indignation or Ancient Catastrophe in exchange.

Once I get my blastia back, anyway.

[adropofjupiter.livejournal.com]

I wonder if I could blow a hole through this field barrier with a Spark...

[blastiagraphy.livejournal.com]

It's worth trying. The original thesis I read stated that it only took an enormous amount of energy to traverse worlds.

Of course, several of the researcher's other supporting theories turned out to be false, but that doesn't mean it's not worth a shot.

[gonnamarrydaddy.livejournal.com]

That's really sad. I'm sorry, Marisa.

[adropofjupiter.livejournal.com]

Eh. I'll go back to pretending it doesn't bother me soon enough. Don't worry about it, ze.

[gonnamarrydaddy.livejournal.com]

If you ever want to talk about it, I'm around, y'know.

[adropofjupiter.livejournal.com]

I know, I know...

[gonnamarrydaddy.livejournal.com]

I'll just let you go, then.