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adropofjupiter) wrote2011-07-16 12:32 pm
adropofjupiter) wrote2011-07-16 12:32 pm
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2nd ☆
[Phone - Stage 2]
[There's a brief moment of silence where it sounds like someone is trying to talk but can't. And then there's a clearing of the throat.]
Well, I was going to try to talk about this in misdirections and stuff like that, but apparently I can't. Which sucks, cause now I've picked up the phone and might as well finish what I started.
Anyways... I don't really have a family. Yeah, I have parents back home - a father at least - but we don't get along. I haven't actually had a full conversation with my father in... years now? And I can't go fix things with him - too much water under the bridge and all, plus I think seeing me is just too painful for him. And I don't want to put him through it.
So I've lived on my own for years, watching family units of friends, allies and even nuisances and I get kinda jealous. Because I see something there that I want, but I can't ever have, 'cause I don't belong to anyone's family. I'm always on the outside looking in, pretending it doesn't bother me, pretending that I don't need stuff like that.
This place... it pisses me off so much if I think too much on it. It makes a mockery of all that with its false families and supposed ideal family values. It's like rubbing it in my face.
[a pause]
And just a friendly warning to those from my world: I will eventually get Master Spark back. Don't make me start a list, cause I've got paper out and ready.
[There's a brief moment of silence where it sounds like someone is trying to talk but can't. And then there's a clearing of the throat.]
Well, I was going to try to talk about this in misdirections and stuff like that, but apparently I can't. Which sucks, cause now I've picked up the phone and might as well finish what I started.
Anyways... I don't really have a family. Yeah, I have parents back home - a father at least - but we don't get along. I haven't actually had a full conversation with my father in... years now? And I can't go fix things with him - too much water under the bridge and all, plus I think seeing me is just too painful for him. And I don't want to put him through it.
So I've lived on my own for years, watching family units of friends, allies and even nuisances and I get kinda jealous. Because I see something there that I want, but I can't ever have, 'cause I don't belong to anyone's family. I'm always on the outside looking in, pretending it doesn't bother me, pretending that I don't need stuff like that.
This place... it pisses me off so much if I think too much on it. It makes a mockery of all that with its false families and supposed ideal family values. It's like rubbing it in my face.
[a pause]
And just a friendly warning to those from my world: I will eventually get Master Spark back. Don't make me start a list, cause I've got paper out and ready.
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And no one's making you not go and visit your father and clear things up with him. You don't really deserve pity either.
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And I'd like to point out that I didn't start these issues between me and my father. It wasn't my choice to be the spittin image of my mother. He's the one that started treating me differently. I tried once. It didn't work.
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We all think this place sucks. I myself find the family shit to be especially obnoxious and mocking, too.
I suppose I can't say any more on that. Zugzwang.
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Anyways... Later.